Missing My Grandma

My Grandma would have turned 87 on Saturday, January 19th and there's not a day that goes by that I don't think of her - I wish I could have had more time with her, I feel like I still had so much to learn from her. 

My Grandma was an incredible lady & she made my world a better place. Our visits were never long enough, even if I was at her house for 2 weeks or more & our phone calls were always too short, even if we chatted for 2 hours at a time. 

It will be 2 years in March since my Grandma left us & it feels like it was only yesterday. How do you get over the loss of someone you loved so much? I dreaded that moment for years leading up to her passing. I used to think to myself - what am I going to do without her? And now - here we are... 2 years without her and it sucks more than I could have ever imagined. And don't tell me "She was 85, she lived a good life".... I don't care... she could have been 185 and I'd still miss her just as much.

I have so many amazing memories of our times together - I just wish I could be making more. She was amazing!! So many times we would laugh until we cried, oh how I miss hearing her laugh! I miss everything about her.

Anyway, I just miss her a lot these days - and wish I could pick up the phone to call her or go for a visit and hug her tight. 

A piece of me went with her the day my Grandma died.

~Cilantro xo